The Future Is Hungry Again

No particular reason for publishing this poem today, other than that I’m just tired (hence the slight delay in publishing) and haven’t published this one yet. It’s apparently about the uncertainty of moving away from my parents’ home to grad school, which was undeniably the correct decision… but I also did lose friends as time passed and as that crew tended to head in a different direction than I did in several ways. It’s an inevitability of change, I suppose.

The Future Is Hungry Again

Originally written May 19, 2006

I wish someone would tell me what to do
I wish I had a glowing neon sign
That says exactly where to stand in line;
Says who to follow; who will lead me through
Along the proper path. I never trust
My own decisions; feelings can deceive—
And paranoia makes me disbelieve
That this is right. And now I know I must
Make a decision, though I’m terrified
Of screwing myself over royally,
And losing some close friends and family—
I’m scared of endings; Please, God, let me hide—
I need you, Lord, my comforter, my friend—
God, show me how to rest in You again.